Bah!
Whatever it is about him that brings me peace inside, I don't want to lose.
Last night, I had a bit of a breakdown. All the built-up stress just got to me and I lost control. I won't tell you what I did, but I'll tell you why I did it.
On top of failing all of my classes, partly because of attendance, partly because of crazy math teachers, I've not been going to work which has caused my boss to be upset with me and caused me the fear of losing my job, I've been busy with RA duties, and I've been stressed with relationship bullshit.
So last night, after a minor tiff with Dave, I came back to my place and locked myself in the bathroom. Again, I won't tell you what I did. But I can tell you I did it because I forgot. I blacked out with rage and anger and tears and stress and forgot all the people I made promises to.
So, to all those I let down, I'm sorry. I told you it'd be impossible for me to make that promise, and though I tried, I didn't make it. I could try to make the same promise again, but as we've all learned, the cycle continues.
Alan's coming tonight. We'll see.
Last night, I had a bit of a breakdown. All the built-up stress just got to me and I lost control. I won't tell you what I did, but I'll tell you why I did it.
On top of failing all of my classes, partly because of attendance, partly because of crazy math teachers, I've not been going to work which has caused my boss to be upset with me and caused me the fear of losing my job, I've been busy with RA duties, and I've been stressed with relationship bullshit.
So last night, after a minor tiff with Dave, I came back to my place and locked myself in the bathroom. Again, I won't tell you what I did. But I can tell you I did it because I forgot. I blacked out with rage and anger and tears and stress and forgot all the people I made promises to.
So, to all those I let down, I'm sorry. I told you it'd be impossible for me to make that promise, and though I tried, I didn't make it. I could try to make the same promise again, but as we've all learned, the cycle continues.
Alan's coming tonight. We'll see.
posted by Elliya at 11:44 AM
Where the music is trapped. 
3 Comments:
in life it is not wut we do or how well we do things, just that we do anything, we survive, and we learn from experience
Aww, thank you Cartie. I really appreciate you guys loving me so much.
You can't fail out! Then i'll miss you ;.;. Just hold on, I'll be there in september!
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