Hopeful Serenity

I honestly can't say which one hurts more- losing you, or losing you again...

I'd go to the end of the world and back to bring you a smile from my journeys. That's never been untrue. Whatever fleeting feelings I experienced were brought on by wandering minds and bad spirits, but that doesn't mean no one's to blame.

Everything you've ever said about me was right. I care too much. I let my strong will to help others overshadow what I think and what I believe in, and even algebra will tell you the resultant is change. I didn't want to. Christ, if I could go back, nothing would have changed. Never would I have even spoken to him, and never would I have taken for granted a single moment I could have been in your arms... Happy... With you...

I made many mistakes, and you made none. I guess in the world's cruel sense of justice, I'm getting what I deserve. But I can only hope your current feelings are fleeting too. Because I'd give anything to be caught up in your breathing while you sleep, unmoving, under the story of stars written just for you and I.