How To Renew A Relationship
I don't quite know where I lost it. Somewhere along the line, all respect for me was diminished and now the only interaction I receive these days is negative. At least from those I give a shit to hear from.
There. Right there. That's the problem. I've gone from being the sweet little naive girl who just loves everyone to the jaded bitch with selfish one-liners under her skin.
I don't want to turn into that. I despise the idea of sucking the morals of, oh say, TJ for example. I mean, I know he's a great guy at his core, but he's tired of the world, and it's tired of him. They've become like a married couple together, bickering and fighting until they prefer silent hatred and unmuttered rules of a long overdue divorce.
Where did my beautiful personality go? When did I start hurting people and when did I stop caring about doing so? Who stepped on me so hard that I couldn't rebound with optimism?
World, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Can we start over?
"I've hurt someone. Something's gone, something's wrong with me."
There. Right there. That's the problem. I've gone from being the sweet little naive girl who just loves everyone to the jaded bitch with selfish one-liners under her skin.
I don't want to turn into that. I despise the idea of sucking the morals of, oh say, TJ for example. I mean, I know he's a great guy at his core, but he's tired of the world, and it's tired of him. They've become like a married couple together, bickering and fighting until they prefer silent hatred and unmuttered rules of a long overdue divorce.
Where did my beautiful personality go? When did I start hurting people and when did I stop caring about doing so? Who stepped on me so hard that I couldn't rebound with optimism?
World, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Can we start over?
"I've hurt someone. Something's gone, something's wrong with me."
posted by Elliya at 2:09 AM
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3 Comments:
See, change is allways good, no matter how bad it is. All it takes now is time, loads of time, probably a hard time. You'll know that time is over when you realise why it helped you.
And i'm weird, weird.
sounds like you have cause for concern.
I'm not tired of the world, i'm simply tired of the status quo. i'm tired of things that need to change and won't, and what i've grown most tired of is that which I have no control over, yet is internal. i'm sure you know what I mean.
i'm tired of being dealt a slighted hand, and i'm tired of that hand limiting me.
renewing a relationship though, now that's easy. step 1: identify what went wrong, which you've (we've) done. step 2: decide on whether or not its worth it to attempt a mend, which you've (we've) also done. step 3: take proavtive action where it needs to be taken to bring about the desired change.
I haven't done that. and I'm sorry. however, in light of recent events, some of which you have knowledge, and a few that I don't care to share, you can expect a few needed changes from me :)
though mending, I love you
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