Something to remind me

And everywhere I go,
There's always something to remind me
Of another place and time
Where love that traveled far had found me.

As much as I fight the idea and proclaim otherwise, I'm broken. I'm living in things I wish I felt. Motivation I wish I had. Sleep I wish I got. Love I wish I knew.

I'm the single audience member in the theater of a poorly written show, and though my smiles of support offer hope to those on stage, the crack in my heart splits a little wider with every lie I tell. Like the rotten inside of a retarded child's mother.

I'm so far distracted, I don't even know where I can begin...