"Mhvvh Vkhsdug" n' me

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If I learned anything today, it's what I need to do. Through the wisdom shared between the Wise Man and his Wise Man, my insight drew much. I feel a level of destined clarity breaching the horizon and it's within my grasp.

I need to gain control of what I used to attribute to chance. I need to realize that I have this control within my realm of ability, and I need to unlock what it means to think things through before leaping.

That said, my mind exhausts itself like a fat kid on the track team trying to remember its Olympic years. It begs the question "What shut me down?" It was before Eric. Before TJ. Maybe even before Dave and Rico... When did I flick off the brilliant switch? And why is it so easy to keep a goal in mind as I train my abilities back again? Especially when I can't even exercise and eat consistently...

Whatever it was that stopped me, it's gone now. It moved out without leaving a note or a message. 'Took the doormat with it...

Above all the things I learned today, the most important to me is what's important to me. That's right, I really began to neatly summarize exactly what I need, what I want, and what needs to happen to get there. Even though one of the things I want involves others getting what they want, I learned that I need to take care of myself in order to take care of others.

With all that in mind, I bid you, my focus, a sweet dreaming. Even though you'll probably never read this.