Neither here nor there.

I'm stuck somewhere between thinking I kick ass and feeling terribly inferior.

On one end of the rather broad spectrum, I'm standing at the top of the world. Perhaps it was my ego that floated me here, or maybe I climbed the mountain. However it happened, I'm here. I've delved back into web development and impressed myself. I'm tirelessly level-headed in almost every facet of my jobs, and I excel at the things few people can. I'm healthy, fit, happy, and standing tall as a role model.

But then the day turns around and I feel awful. I look at those I've loved and hurt and feel sick. Somewhere in the downward spiral, I lose all confidence in myself and begin to destruct, which makes me feel even more inferior for being weak. When I look down around me, I see the mountain I'm standing on is a heap of manure and my discouragement doubles on itself. And then I want to run away.

At least I understand this roller coaster ride, and it only fluctuates between these two extremes.

Though... Some middle ground would be nice.