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I've found myself lodged in the very definition of patheticism. Firefox doesn't even seem to think it's a word with it's red jagged underline...

I can sense clarity, like I can see what I should be... Where I should be... What I could be doing, what I could have done... But within the words of the definition are my character flaws and my behavioral history. For those, I will do nothing.

I will do nothing but wait. And hope.

Letting go...

There's no worse feeling in the world than knowing you've given up on your dreams and aspirations for something. When you're ready to just settle with what you have and let go of all the things you've wished you could be or wished you could have.

I'm tired of fighting and going against the grain just to be under appreciated and even scolded for my self-motivation. I'm tired of the same conflict. I'm tired of being held down, I'm tired of hoping and wishing and praying that, maybe on an odd day, I might be valued.

I'm sick with pathetic new ideals that outline good 'business decisions' and rub like sandpaper against my morals.

I can feel myself becoming less of a good person... And for what? $237 every paycheck and a nice apartment to stay in...

This job isn't what it's supposed to be. And I'll give one hearty guess toward who's at fault.

I think I want to quit.