Dear Me,

You'll never be anything but in love with him. There's no kind of distance, no kind of silence, and no kind of awkward conversation that could keep you from wishing every moment could be spent in the comfort of his arms... of his voice...

But you can never tell him how far gone you are for him. You can never truly expose how vulnerable he makes your heart, because if he were to know that... Well... His poor cold heart might beat again.

And down...

Oh god how I wish I didn't struggle with the chemicals in my very own body. The price I'd pay to just be able to be happy without the dreaded dips of the roller coaster. Just for a chance at being normal...

A little girl once told me not to cry. Never to cry. Because once you start crying, you think of all the things that you could be crying about, and you never, ever stop.

Some lessons learned early on in life just stick with you.